so the,weird thing is, I think I probably believe in my explanation of reality more than most Christians believe in their version of a loving and personally concerned G-d.

just a gut instinct.

it wouldn’t take much in terms of a few really bad life events to shake most Christians of the thought that He is watching over them, say if their children are kidnapped, raped, tortured over a period of years and then murdered, even though they go to church weekly, and then have to sit and listen to the murderer talk about his acceprance of jesus christ at trial…but my faith works in good and bad times.