Because while painful i suspect everything that you did for your victims is CYA. You want sympathy because you are spending money on attorneys? Get a fricken clue. Talk about entitlement.
If everybody got to plead all this sob story stuff they would be no need for prisons. Most evil doers simply don’t have the funds to attempt to make retribution or know it won’t do any good anyway. Why should money or your attempts to save yourself present a different justice system for you? You’ll be crazy or not depending on how it works for you.
I believe in jail for you because I see anything else as special privilege and the things you did are vile and your pleas here ,and most likely everywhere, are pathetic.
You are so nice why don’t you plead guilty and save society all the trouble. Oh Yeah because that would hurt YOU worse.