I don’t understand why you equate learning about the roots of your emotional reactions with being a victim necessarily.
Would studying the history of a nation be (a) useful in learning about its current state of affairs and why it is doing the things it does, or (b) wallowing in the past and blaming our current problems on the historical actors of the past.
Is a nation reborn everyday with no tie to the people before us?
Is a man?
I kind of want to talk to your folks and get their perspective. can you put them on this thread?