I find myself in a position today where I could never work again and enjoy the same lifestyle even accounting for high medical insurance with no worries, even for scaredycat.

The problem for me is I could not afford large future expenses I might want to make. I couldn’t afford to pay cash for a kids medical school. I couldn’t give large cash down payments for houses. I couldn’t help out with free cars and stuff. I also need to send money to the Escondido Buddhists…

I’d like to be able to do all those things. If I kept working, I could, and not feel impact about future anxiety. Also, I sometimes like work and don’t want to be a useless old man who no one listens to. Worse, I could turn into an old guy who talks about prior work days. Ugh. I hate old guys like that

Therefore although I do not feel like working on Tuesday, or this weekend, I’ll be heading in later today.

Even if I were to die tomorrow, I would feel about this life direction it is correct