[quote=svelte]Love the let time work for you thing.
That’s something I discovered in my 20s…I sleep much better if I put myself on a course where every day gets a little better, a little less risk. I struggle when I’m on the opposite path. One of the reasons I never chose an adjustable rate mortgage, though in hindsight that would have been better. Who knew?[/quote]
i feel the same, but maybe this is just what being old and facing death is? there’s a little less risk every day because most of the days are in the past and decided.
When you are young, it is all risk, all possibility. Now, old, you know basically how the story turned out. so many fewer unknowns. you have arrived. you are here.
it’s beautiful, but oddly sad.
here is a word that someone made up from the dictionary of obscure sorrows, my favorite dictionary in the world. it is comprised entirely of words people constructed to express emotions we all have not currently covered by language.
énouement
n. the bittersweetness of having arrived here in the future, where you can finally get the answers to how things turn out in the real world—who your baby sister would become, what your friends would end up doing, where your choices would lead you, exactly when you’d lose the people you took for granted—which is priceless intel that you instinctively want to share with anybody who hadn’t already made the journey, as if there was some part of you who had volunteered to stay behind, who was still stationed at a forgotten outpost somewhere in the past, still eagerly awaiting news from the front.
and so part of me is now hankering for some extreme risk, that the story isn’t told, that scaredy isn’t fully decided, there is still a plot twist. i mean, not as risky as an ARM, but you know, something….unexpected.
too old for a midlife crisis, too young to die.
maybe i can sell that slogan as tshirts at senior centers…
cant even get an ARM nowadays. which is an odd sign in itself..
