it seemed terrible to me, ecologically, economically to be an old guy knocking around in a way too big house in the boonies. but fuck it, it has a decaying awful beauty to it.sure its inefficient. sure it would make more sense for a growing family. but the hell with that. here, i take my stand, is what i thought, riding my ebike to work. I AM GOING TO MAKE MY STAND HERE, i thought forcefully, then later thought i wasnt quite sure what i meant to say by “my stand”, but if you were there, that is, in my head, i think youd have gotten the sense of it. i am going to die here, hopefully doing heavy yard work at 92.