[quote=scaredyclassic]no. its the word. it gives me the Willies

my parents deeply distrusted all Christians. they assumed everyone was antisemitic.

back in the old days they were often correct.

times changed. now people just hate Arabs.

but I still bristle at Jesus, remnant of my early programming that the Christians want us gone…over the long arc of Jewish history, it was a good bet to assume Christians wanted you dead. I’ll never be deprogrammed, its too late. i could never say the word jesus without choking on it

can’t trust em…I guess when I hear the word jesus, i hear in the subtext, trained from birth…” let’s go beat the shit out of some jews”.

brrrr. Jesus.[/quote]

Hmm. Earlier you mentioned feeling pressured and/or fearing a scam. This sounds different.