I miss the old days. The present is OK, but I’ve always spent most of my time in the past. I really liked 2002 through 2006, and 1990 to 1994 was really awesome. But the time spent trying to buy a house with TG and everyone on line was kind of fun in retrospect too. Now that i see an actual psychotherapist every week, I have a lot less need to vent here, not that i don’t event, it’s just not as intense a need. A lot of the drama I was creating in my little life over the relatively minor event of buying a house was just energy diverted from or unconsciously covering over other problems I was avoiding…really, a good realtor should be at least 30% therapist.

but man, TG was so funny. The whole site had such a great energy and it was substantially attributable to TG. Now it’s likethe morning after a big party at my kid’s college, it’s just like empty red cups underfoot with cigarettes, and weird people crashed on the floor and someone cooking eggs in your pan.

I’d like to get past this college tuition phase like TG, not so much to live a life of debauchery, whcih I feel is unlikely to work out for me, but just to not have to write large checks anymore. I hate writing large checks. I just want to pay my puny mortgage and the large but not that large organic food bill my wife runs up on her credit card.

that would be so awesome! and to pay my therapist…