there is no way to have everything i want. life is compromise. mrs scaredy and I went on a long hike today and discussed life. I don’t know. I haven’t faxed the termination yet. Still in the inspection period. i agonize too much. i have a hard time even just buying a pair of pants. I don’t want to buy anything. I think I even have enough underwear to last me the rest of my life. I would have more confidence if she were more excited. She is too honest to pretend to be excited but she likes it. She’s just not crazy about the place. We could see the house from the nature preserve we were hiking in. There it was. I hate suburbia, sprawl, huge energy inefficient houses, as does she. Yet this is where i am, this is my lot in life, so to speak. My wife also said the house had made her feel like buying things to put in it, and I am opposed to consumption , and so is she, at least usually. this house would turn us into basically regular people and that could be scary. even i want to buy things to put in this house. when i rent, i figure, ah hell i dont wann abuy that, id hate to have to move it. we lose that natural restriction