You would not be posting looking for emotional support if you were not afraid.
Fear is an emotion as old as humanity and serves a very practical purpose.
Fear is why you look both ways before crossing the road. Which is not considered irrational.
What you are doing is crossing the road when you know very well it’s not safe to cross because you see, what you consider, the promise land on the other side. With lots of people telling you to cross for their own reasons.