You already know the answer to your question . . .
But, just for the fun of it, the question could be stated another way, “should I lose money or should I not lose money.”
You’ve waited this long, wait! Go to Home Depot, buy some nice planter boxes, or better yet, you and your husband and kids make some really cool ones. Play in the dirt and plant your seeds!
Just think how you will feel 3 years from now when you find that one true home that you know you didn’t become a servant to! That is unless of course you like to be dominated in painful ways.