It is lack of love of self and others that leads to destruction.
“bad” decisions are always born out of trauma or lack of emotional understanding (there is knowing better and then there is knowing better on an emotional level).
We are all just here on this planet learning as we go. Good for you, that you are where you are, that you have learned what you have learned.
I am speaking from a spiritual and karmic perspective here. There truly is no right or wrong to our choices. There is only choice and the consequences of those choices that allow us to learn.
I am grateful for my debt as I am grateful for my freedom from it, as the path has made me much more compassionate for those who believe they are enslaved.
And, yes, I said it, enslaved. For that is the illusion we are all working on seeing and then freeing ourselves from, enslavement.
We are sovereign and it is our birthright here to experience abundance and joy.
The paths to that truth are as varied as the beings who walk it, but we are all walking it, whether we get there in this lifetime, this reality, or another. We are all One.